The Date Is Set...

Well, that almost sounds like I'm getting married.  But, I guess that's pretty fitting seeing as I am making a huge, life long, life altering, commitment!  The point is, I have an official date for my Gastric Bypass procedure!  I will be headed to the hospital on December 10th to have my guts rearranged. At 9:00 AM on that fateful Tuesday, I will be at the Methodist Specialty and Transplant Hospital, checking in for my procedure and most likely nervous as hell.  At least that's how I was before the surgery I had earlier this year.  Although, this is where I had my last procedure done and the staff was amazing and really helped to put me at ease, as well as my mom.  I just have to keep myself focused on the end result and remind myself how worth it this is going to be.

I'm not going to lie, I have had some serious doubts and have asked myself several times if I really know what I am getting myself into.  I've tried bargaining with myself about trying it the "old fashioned way" one more time.  I've even considered not doing anything all together and just keep living life like I was before. Who cares if I'm unhealthy? It's not effecting them, just me!  Ultimately, I told myself that this is the right thing for me.  I have tried so many other times before to do this on my own and failed. I know that with this tool, I will loose the weight.  I just have to get my mind to the point where I won't self-sabotage and change the outcome.  I have to get my brain to the point where it only sees food as fuel and not a reward or comfort.  This is a lot easier said than done, because my brain has been in that mode since I was a kid.  It seems that mental hurdles are always the hardest to jump.

I know that this will happen in time, as well as reaching my goal weight will.  I'm just so ready to reach that goal, that I wish it could happen overnight.  But alas, it will be a long journey, and I just have to make sure I'm prepared for it.  I'm just going to pretend I'm Frodo and my weight loss goal is Gollum's "Precious".  It's an adventure I will have to fight my way through, but I will overcome in the end! Maybe that's not a good analogy, I mean he does end up wounded and goes to some "land of the elves" crap because he's dead, or dying, and he leaves all his friends behind...oh well, you get my point! (I hope, lol!)