Can I just say that this has been incredible so far? I am beyond elated that I decided to make this change in my life. Making the decision to have gastric bypass has changed my life so much and has been so rewarding in so many aspects in my life, the least of which is weight loss. I mean, sure, that's a huge part of it, but so much more of me has changed for the better.
Let me break all this awesomeness down for you all.
1. Confidence:
I have so much more confidence in myself. And it's not because my appearance has changed, it's because I made the decision to change my life. The fact that I jumped this big hurdle to undergo surgery to improve my health showed me that I am so much stronger than I was a year ago. If I can do this and get through surgery, then I can do anything. I don't care what other people think about my life or me or how I look, because I love the choices I have made, and I love me and that's all that matters. Without those barriers of doubt, I now walk into a room proud of who I am and what I have done. Walking onto a plane and sitting next to a skinny person who glares at me is no longer an issue. The glares just seem pathetic and kinda make me laugh to myself thinking, "if you only knew".
2. Strength:
Because I have been working out, I've got muscles that I never knew existed. I can go harder, longer, faster than I ever could before and I am amazed each time I step off the elliptical, each time I get off the ab cruncher machine, each time I wipe all the sweat off my brow, that I DID that! It makes me want to do more and I never thought I'd be that person.
3. Control:
I had no idea going into this how much more control over my life I would have. I feel like just in changing my daily routine, with diet, exercise and medications, that I would end up feeling in control of everything else, especially my emotions. It seems as though once I got control over what I was eating, other things started falling into place. Before I had my surgery, I would binge eat out of control, and it was usually when my emotions were at their worst. If my depression was on high alert, it was a whole large pizza, and bread sticks, and a 2 liter of soda, and probably some ice cream... Now that I my stomach won't let me over eat, I control how much I put into my body. By having control over that, I feel like I have learned moderation, and can moderate my emotions better. As a matter of fact, I have been off my anti-depressants since a month after my surgery, and haven't had a single panic attack in 6 months. I can't even tell you how relieved this makes me feel.
I just can't believe how much has changed in the last 6 months, and I can't wait for more changes. This is the best decision I have ever made in my life. EVER!
Start Weight: 451 lbs.
Weight at Surgery 12/10/13: 428 lbs.
Current Weight: 293 lbs.
Total Weight Lost: 158 lbs.
Current Mood: Happy
